I’ve spent most of my life
trying to sketch perfectly my favorite climbing tree
many pencils have seen their end in this process
I’ve failed
many
many
times
the branches are never strong enough
and the leaves just don’t smell right on paper.. . .
. .. .
For the
last four years
I’ve bled on paper
trying to recreate a summer that
happened over 800 days ago in some form of art.
but
The laughter just doesn't sound right
and I can never put the way the sun touched my soul down on
paper.
Trust me
tears have been shed.
There was
this horse
who left me too soon
he was white and he glided when he ran
I didn’t have enough time to get to know him
Sometimes I called him Captain
occasionally his name was Winter
I had hoped he would have become a Galileo
my heart is still
pierced
and no poetry has come from that ache.
And because
I’m a writer,
I wonder why some stories are impossible to put on paper.
Maybe we’re
not always supposed to capture memories in picture form.
Maybe we’re
not supposed to document every heart ache
Maybe some
moments we eventually forget.
Maybe there
are some things so enchanting only our hearts can remember
N.D. Wilson said, “Humans are not intended for data storage
(though we have the capacity). We are intended for living, for moving through a
story”
A few
summers ago
I was so busy living I barely had time to write.
I don’t remember that whole summer,
but I do have some really stellar stories from it.
I haven’t
ever documented the rhythm of my heart beat
or the volume of my laugh.
I have
never written down
exactly how the Wisconsin river felt in my hair
but my heart understands completely
I can’t
draw a picture of my favorite climbing tree
but sometimes my hands remember the texture
and my ears hear my brothers laugh.
This Life
Is Meant To Be Lived
And I hope I feel the poetry I can’t write.
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