worried and scared
anxious and excited
emotions filled my body with feelings I didn't recognize
soon
I'll be out of the country
this glamorous lifestyle will temporarily leave me
Haiti
here
I
come
first plane ride
motion sick
second plane ride
motion sick
four hour car ride
"I might throw up on you"
pale skin
a foreign country
God please change me
first thought
TAKE ME HOME
second thought
do I really have to kill another cockroach
third thought
I think I like this gecko on our wall
fourth thought
I could get used to this
God keep changing me
we spent many hours with beautiful kids
laughing
running
singing
I rode on top of the land cruiser
never inside
the air was what kept me feeling
alive
we sang many songs
we played a lot of soccer
I laughed
and fell in love
for the first time ever
words became familiar like
"don't forget your bug spray"
"don't flush your toilet paper"
"don't drink the water"
God please break me
Oh God please change me
language barriers
never kept a friendship from blossoming
I still remember the way your eyes hid when you smiled
I studied your face
afraid I would forget
the way your eyes sparkled
I miss your laugh
and the way you said my name
Emahlee
Emahlee
Emahlee
Oh I would gladly
get motion sick for twelve hours
just to play soccer with Kensley again.
I would sweat like a man again
just to feel the oily skin of Haitian children
climb all over me
And I would give anything
anything
to dance with Youzelie
under the stars
oh Haiti you have stolen my heart
and I don't think
I ever want it back
I'll be back Haiti
I'll be back Youzelie
This one made me cry... Im so glad you got to go!!!♡♡
ReplyDeleteBeautiful and vulnerable, Emily! This is so wonderfully feminine, I love it.
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